At the beginning of I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter, Julia was ambitious and closed off. After Olgas death, Julias life was made more tense and frustrating, causing Julia to plummet into her depression. Even before Olgas death, Julia and her family were very disconnected and her relationship with her parents was not enough. Ama, Julias mother is very hard and strict on her, she doesn’t even try to understand her and critizies her every move. Julia's relationship with her father is basically nonexistent, they aren't remotely close and never have any meaningful conversation. Olgas death caused resentment to grow between Julia and her father, an emotion among all others she never knew could sprout between her and her dad. Olgas death hasn't …show more content…
Julia describes it as having a “ghost father and ghost sister”(pg.15). All of these factors have forced Julia to face feelings of depression and guilt that she's been repressing while also intensifying them. Ever since she was little, Julia felt like the odd daughter out for liking and believing in different things. She wasn't who they wanted her to be like, Olga, “Saint Olga, the perfect Mexican daughter. Sometimes I wanted to scream at her until something switched on in her brain. But the only time I ever asked her why she didn’t move out or go to a real college, she told me to leave her alone in a voice so weak and brittle, I never wanted to ask her again. Now I’ll never know what Olga would have become. Maybe she would have surprised us all “(pg. 3). This dynamic of Julia feeling judged and disregarded caused Julia's feelings of depression and shame. And then when Olga died her mental health declined , she had to confront all her emotions, and make a change.The day Olga died she took the bus because her mom couldn't pick her up and on the bus transfer she got hit by a bus and died. Ama couldn't pick Olga up because she had to be at Julia's