In certain situations, people have a rough time coming to terms with who they are. In the book Simon vs. the Homosapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli, a boy named Simon Spier identifies as gay but is afraid people will find out and judge him. He is especially afraid to come out to his peers. That is until one of his mortal enemies, Martin Addison, discovers his huge secret and then later happens to be blackmailed by Martin. This level of betrayal results in Simon feeding into the blackmailing so that Martin does not reveal this untold news. This comes to the topic of one's mind being pulled in conflicting directions by two compelling desires.
Simon hates the thought of people finding out his sexuality. Martin puts his fears into reality when he goes to log onto a computer, and the computer is still logged into Simon's account with an email from a mysterious person called “Blue.” Furthermore, Martin instantly deciphers that Blue is a boy and assumes Simon's sexual identity. “Anyway, I thought it might interest you that my brother is gay.” Martin took this information and decided to use it to his advantage.
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Simon's family has always imagined him as being a straight boy. For example, Simon has even had two girlfriends and has always been “his father’s son”. His father also always tends to make “gay jokes,” making Simon more timid to come out to his parents. As Simon proceeds to email Blue, which he has no idea who this person is, he starts to recognize he has an interest in guys. Simon was very frightened to come out to his peers and everybody at school because he didn't want to assume his personality and interests were different because of his sexuality. This internal conflict causes Simon not to come to terms with who he actually is and stay closeted. He still did not have a clue on how to come out, but little did he know, he wouldn't have to worry about that because Martin had all of that already planned