School Violence I felt emotionally torn apart. I could not imagine why someone with such hate, would ever treat me with disrespect in front of my fellow classmates. Something like this should never happen in school. I knew I had to stand my ground, or I would have been picked on for the rest of my highschool experience. All of a sudden, he shoved me and continued calling me terrible names. In the blink of an eye we began fighting. I remember looking down and seeing my hands covered in blood. It’s a day I never want to rethink. It only ever got worse, through the painful and daunting past experience. I developed long-term effects such as depression, social anxiety, and loneliness. I guess the person I got into a fight with had no sympathy for what he’s done to me. …show more content…
I began losing hope for any happiness. I felt utterly distant from my emotions and realized I was losing my pure confidence. My imagination started flourishing. I thought everyone around me was judging my life. Eye contact was in the past and never could be the same after that incident. I was losing hope in myself. After telling my mother what I was going through, she took me to therapy. It did not change my well being, I was still lost. I did not like talking to someone I never knew. Especially with my own emotions. Subsequently, this was something I had to fix on my own but never could have. School was still not the same and began losing the only friends I had.
After failing to keep my friendships alive, I forgot how to socially interact. Becoming more difficult, I remember walking through the halls by myself with nobody to talk to. Suffering from making new friends, I lost the ability to gain a sense of self-esteem. Every social encounter, I had a grief of self embarrassment. I felt trapped in my own mind. Finding a way to come out of this pity of consciousness. My social skills began to worsen and developed in an unexpected