In my lifetime, I have felt the “Hyde” side of me beginning to arise. This happens usually in situations in which someone or something upsets me, and I can’t help but think of ways that I can get whatever is happening to stop. Ways that my head immediately go to are to yell at them, or to even unfortunately slap some sense into the person, but if it’s not a person I’m upset at, I just brood in my bedroom about the situation and don’t do anything to counteract it. I make good attempts at keeping these thoughts at bay, I have to take precautions to not let my “Hyde” thoughts cloud my judgment, and I know that multiple parts of my personality are influenced by my inner “Jekyll”. I do always end up keeping these thoughts in the dark, or at least …show more content…
In the moment, I’d think that whatever I said and thought are my true feelings in the situation, and not realize that maybe it is not the best time to be making decisions. I have always hated how difficult it is for me to form rational thoughts when I’m in such bad moods, but it’s also difficult for me to back off and compose myself when I begin to say things I don’t mean. Unlike Jekyll, I have never desired to become my Hyde side. In the novel, the text reads “If each, I told myself, could be but housed in separate identities, life would be relieved of all that was unbearable; The unjust might go his way, delivered from the aspirations and remorse of his more upright twin; And the just could walk steadfastly and securely on his upward path, doing the good things in which he found his pleasure, and no longer exposed to disgrace and penitence by the hand of this extraneous evil” (43). Jekyll has the desire to split his soul into a “good” and a “bad” side, in order for him to experience the dangerous thrills in life while also guaranteeing that he will still be able to go to heaven because of his remaining good side. But for myself, I really can’t see myself wanting to split myself for such reasons. If I really wanted to separate myself into two identities inside of me, I’d do it to attempt to erase my Hyde side. I’d rather be a balanced human