Esch In Salvage The Bones

Esch in Salvage the Bones, by Samantha Grey, could have prevented getting pregnant, but she could not prevent the hurricane. I could have prevented eating edibles of marijuana, but I could not prevent developing an anxiety disorder. I’ve associated my events with edibles to my anxiety disorder because I had not developed it until after my experience. After my first semester had ended at Xavier, it was now winter break. I was very excited to be back home and see all my friends that had gone off to college and come back. It was not but a few days after I landed in California that I spent the day with my best friend. My best friend decided to invite her current eye candy, my ex-girlfriend and I to spend the night and catch up. We were all very

Having a panic disorder means you “ experience spontaneous seemingly out-of-the-blue panic attacks and are preoccupied with the fear of a recurring attack. Panic attacks occur unexpectedly, sometimes even during sleep” (adaa.org). It’s all about the sensations of the body and excessive worrying. A panic disorder can lead to agoraphobia and depression. I had developed depression as well because of my anxiety. This disorder altered my life in ways I could never imagine. I felt dismantled, confused, hurt, mad, and scared all covered by a cloud of anxiety and sadness that hovered me throughout the day. I wasn’t the Kaitlin that glowed with optimism and passion. I had become a shell of her but I’m trying to fill that her in again. Having this disorder has strongly brought me towards advocacy in educating people on mental health. I now go to therapy and take two types of medicine to help handle my disorder and depression. To get through the day, I surround myself with patient and loving people. I continue to pray and look up to God. A scripture that stays with me throughout the day is 1 Peter 5 versus 6-11, “(6) Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, (7) casting all your anxieties on him because he cares for you. (8) Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking to devour. (9) Resist him, firm in you faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. (10) And after a little while, God the of all grace, who has called eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. (11)To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen.” (Bible