My love for John Holbrook has no limits! I can’t wait for us to get married and finally have a house of our own. I already planned everything. Our house will be on Broad Street, it will have two floors and a small garden where I will be able to plant everything I want! It does not matter if I have to scour the whole house, it will be worth it. All the time he has between his job, we will spend sitting on our oak wood polished balcony, talking about everything he wants. Every single day, when I finish my daily chores, I go outside, sit by the stairs and think of this dream like moment. Oh my god! I begrudge him soo much! I hope he comes some time for dinner, even though father said he did not want him to come back. Oh dear diary please help