In this passage, Cobain states to profiler why he was depressed without even knowing it. He compared himself to his daughter and wife. He felt incapable of ever being able to give them the life that they deserve- to take care of him. He blatantly states that he was terrified, that he couldn’t deal with the thought of being responsible for any actions less than perfect in regards to their life and treatment and he couldn’t mentally deal with it. Every day the feelings of remorse, of insecurity, or guilt would eat away at him and become debilitating, and that's just what happened. This quote and his family was established to be one of the reasons he ended his life. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years.
Cobain here uses metaphors according to Eva T. S. Sudjana1 Nurul Fitri “burning pit means grave” they state. With this being the case Cobain knew his attempt at suicide would succeed and that these thank yous would be found after his passing. However, at the other end of the spectrum, they
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He feels like death will be the relief and that his life was in a state of disaster that could not be recovered. It’s better to burn out than fade away expresses his certainty of his act. That he knew he really wanted to do it with o second thought. That he’d rather die loved than fade out of music altogether when he became unpopular. By fading away, it is true that Cobain wouldn’t be directly in the spotlight, however, the depression would still be there, it’s still an illness regardless of whether or not he as active in the music industry. It’s similar to having the flu. You have the flu whether you’re at the grocery store or school. Eva T. S. Sudjana and Nurul Fitri state that Cobain additionally was stating his exhaustion because burn out means to work too hard or exhaust