There are countless books, articles, and movies that illustrate the beauties and struggles of young love and depict how the innocent heart of a child often views reality through foggy lenses. I was that thirteen-year-old girl who saw through clouded lenses that lead my naive mind to think that my decisions were all clear to me; I knew exactly what I was doing and what I wanted out of life. I did not realize that the decisions I made and the thoughts that I acted upon would create obstacles for the next two years of my life. The people I surrounded myself with, and the aura of negativity I expressed led to a time of selfish and inconsiderate decisions that affected the family and friends most meaningful to me.
For a period of two years that
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The foggy glasses convinced me that the relationships I lost were not my fault, and the actions I displayed were not erroneous. The foggy glasses soon became so muddled that they allowed one person to mold me into becoming the worst version of myself. However, one experience in the hallway made me realize that I did not want to spend another day being the worst version of myself. It was a Tuesday in early February and my significant other was not in school that day. Walking in the hallway with my current best friend, a teacher commented that I looked alive. For two years not one person told me I had looked happy. It was simple, but it clicked and made me realize that I did not need the negativity that I had lived in the shadows of for so long. I was more important than the relationship and I wanted more out of life than the inconsiderate person I saw in the mirror behind the foggy glasses. I wanted to be free of the ridicule and negativity from my peers and family that surrounded my day-to-day life. I wanted to have friends again, and most of all I wanted to be successful. So I