Have you ever lost someone dear to you? after Holden's brother Allie passes away, he has strange ways of dealing with his loss. His mixed emotions and the actions caused by them show what a loss can do to impact someones life and can take a toll on themself. One raging emotion that Holden encounters is violent outbursts. “I was only thirteen and they were going to have me psychoanalyzed and all, because I broke all the windows in the garage. This took place the night that Allie died, he slept in the garage with his bare, busted and bloody hands. This quotes shoes that for an atheist, Holden he seems terrified at the thought of his own death and then sometimes he’s indifferent and objective to the notion. “If there’s ever another war, I’m going to sit right the hell on top of the atomic bomb. I’ll volunteer for it, I swear to God I will.” He describes his won suicidal thoughts. The second of many emotions Holden goes through is depression. “I can’t stand that stuff. It drives me crazy. It makes me so depressed I go crazy. I hated that goddam Elkton Hills.” Holden does not speak about Allie’s death directly nor openly. There’s a link between his inability to articulate his feelings and his depressive state. He has a hard time to fully process it. It shows his inability to cope. His whole dissociation with himself shows he’s lost. The lack …show more content…
He lives in the past. His behavior over his death is the same way he reacts when anything else goes wrong in his life. He blames himself so his life resolution is to be the catcher in the rye. He dreams to save children from losing their innocence to make up for his remorse and regret of not being able to save his brother, the most innocent in his life. That’s all he focuses his life on. “I’d just be the catcher in the rye and all, I know it’s crazy, but that’s the only thing I’d really like to be.” This is how experienced dealing with