Secrets are meant to be kept, except for in this case. No longer am I afraid to expose my secret to the judgment of others, for without its presence in my life I wouldn’t be where I am today. I wouldn’t be who I am today. This is my story of survival and self-discovery. Hunger is not something that is new to me, for I am always hungry. However, does that mean that I am never satisfied? Well, hunger doesn’t always come to me physically; in fact, usually it stimulates me intellectually. In many ways, hunger organizes my world; it is both my greatest strength and most treacherous weakness. It makes me impatient to learn, impatient to run faster times and impatient to understand the world. Nevertheless, I cannot deny that nourishment is a basic …show more content…
The sad truth of it all is that whenever I feel anxiety or failure, my innate coping mechanism has been to stop eating. Perhaps, my eating disorder manifested from the feeling of needing to punish myself and test my mental fortitude. Whatever the initial cause was it doesn’t matter. What I do feel obliged to do is explain my personal demon, as it is inherently related to who I am today and why I want to study medicine. My hunger to study medicine was born from the realization that I can make a difference in this world by helping those who cannot help themselves. For over two years I struggled to feed my hunger to live. I know personally just how hard it is to go through something life threatening. I want to go into health care because even though over coming my own disorder was undoubtedly the most painful process I have yet to face; deprivation and emptiness taught me what truly matters in life. It taught me to value my health, it taught me to value my family and it taught me to respect the help offered by others. In the end we’re all human. We all make mistakes, have personal flaws and can’t do everything on our own. To say that I recovered from this disorder entirely on my own would be a lie. The support given from my health care team, school, family and peers all attributed to my recovery. It is now my turn to give back to the