Looking back on the last seven months, I can 't help but wonder what things in my life would have been different if I hadn 't met him. I didn 't want to think about it, in fact, I 've been trying to avoid thinking about it. If I hadn 't met him, I would probably be somewhere back in Cali, trying to make a living for myself, not knowing what the next day would bring. I wouldn 't know the feeling of his arms wrapped around me, making me feel like I 'm safe at night. And I definitely wouldn 't have fallen completely and utterly in love with him. I wouldn 't know how it would feel to be loved back by Joshua Dun.
That 's the thing though. How can one know that love is real? Maybe it 's just a figment of our imaginations. Maybe it 's something that humans made up to make themselves feel more secure, or maybe just to please their minds. Maybe I don 't know what love is. But, what else could I be feeling for him? There 's nothing I could ever want more than just
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7 MONTHS EARLIER
"Fucking hell, Chris! COME ON WE 'RE GONNA BE LATE!" my oldest brother, Marc yelled to me from downstairs.
Usually I wouldn 't take his rudeness, but I was just as hype as he was tonight. We were going to a Panic! concert, and nothing could ruin it. We pre-bought VIP tickets like 7 month 's ago. I couldn 't believe the day was already here.
We had to get going because the show was in Columbus and Marc was paranoid that we were gonna be the last people there and will have to wait in