It is a normal day in fourth grade. I am continuously stumping my classmates academically; however, students also make fun of my accent and unbreakable pattern of defeat in my Physical Education, P.E class. I have come to accept my lack of athleticism, and am giving up on my dream to become an athlete. Yet deep down inside, it still matters to me that no one wants me on their team. I disguise my dreadful athleticism from my classmates by acting careless and uninterested in the game. This particular day of P.E. requires me to face the embarrassment of another game of dodgeball. Playing with a deliberate air of absent mindedness, I end up smacking heads with one of my classmates, my jaw taking the brunt of the hit. From this day on, my life …show more content…
She experiences Industry verses Inferiority during the ages suggested by Erik Erikson. Throughout these years, she struggles to feel competent in her athletics and fitting in with her peers despite her different accent, but acknowledges her adeptness in academics and dares. Lucy also experiences Erikson’s third stage, Initiative versus Guilt; however, she experiences it from age nine all the way to through graduate school and after. She experiences the aspects of this stage as she puts the issues of her family on her own shoulders, and feels guilt and shame. Because she cannot resist crying during chemotherapy and when losing her hair, and has too high of expectations for surgery outcomes, she feels she is a disappointment and blames herself for being unable to fix her family. Lucy also undergoes Identity versus Role Confusion, Erikson’s fifth stage. Despite the age range Erikson placed on this stage, Lucy experiences this from age nine and beyond graduate school. She can never break her mindset of being the ugly girl who had cancer. She believes the only way she can free herself from this identity is to find/recover her actual face. Lucy, therefore, endures surgery after surgery. The last stage Lucy experiences in her autobiography is Intimacy verses Isolation. She also experiences this stage out of the realm of Erikson’s set age range. From high school and beyond graduate school, she lives a life of loneliness, having sex with anyone, and convinced no one will ever love her. It is not until an attractive man talks with her in a café that Lucy eventually looks at her reflection to see if she is finally released from the imposter that is her face and have hope that someone could love her and find her