Mom and Dad are dressed up to take me home. It feels the same, though, I 'm wearing what I always wear, khaki pants and my tie-dyed T-shirt and my dressy shoes. Dad has to work so they decided to come early. I 'm frightened as I vision going to school tomorrow, however I 'm excited to start at a new school, a fresh start for a new me. As I 'm about to leave, I look around and can 't believe five days ago I was contemplating killing myself. As I walk around I tell everyone bye, it 's almost sad leaving I actually felt like I belonged somewhere for the first time in my life. I say goodbye to Armelio, Humble, Bobby, The Professor, Smitty, Ebony, and Noelle. I 'm really going to miss not spending my time with Noelle and eating in the dining room. I thought I was ready to get out …show more content…
The elevator doors screech to a stop and open. I inhale the scent of the outdoors, it seems like not long ago, I was coming to this place thinking I was about to die. Nonetheless, now here I am living. This is probably enough for some people, to make the "shift" happen in their lives. On the other hand, for some reason I 'm different, I 'm worse, I 'm not like everyone else. Is there something more wrong with me, I wonder as I slowly stepped outside taking in New York City all around me. Many people would love to live the life I live, so why, why am I the one hating it? I just don 't conceive I can do it anymore, to put on a fake smile. I enjoyed how in the Mental Hospital that you didn 't have to put on a fake smile, you could just say you were having a dreadful day and everyone just accepted you. Although, out here, in this world, in society, you always have to put on that fake smile and that is what I believe gets to me the most.The worst thing about my depression is once you know the cause, you can change and not let that happen in your life anymore, however my cause won 't go away, my cause will always be here. The constant worry about school and getting the