I was happier when I let go of things that hurt. Happiness is defined as good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy. When I let go of my pain, anger, and regret I found myself in this so called state of happiness. I was braver when I decided to do things out of my comfort zone, when I decided to do little things that make life better. By becoming braver, I became happier, and in the end I was better. Growing up I had a good strong family but like every other family, it had it’s a struggles. As time had passed we all grew apart. The struggles became much bigger than when they had first started. They devoured my family, chewed it up and spit it up. I thought I would feel more sad, after all my last words were “whatever”, I thought I would prevail …show more content…
Thinking about all the conversations we shared. Wishing I had said I forgave her, and thinking about what would appear different, and wishing things were. Hating myself because it was pitiful, to think I hadn’t forgiven her in time. I didn’t forgive her in time to tell her. But I forgave her in time to forgive myself. I forgave myself for all the silly pointless fights, and arguments. I forgave myself for the sad nights, for the things I didn’t succeed at. I forgave myself for the days I just didn’t want to be here. I forgave myself because it was the right thing to do. I am a happier and braver person because I am on the way to accepting myself and the past. I took the action of forgiving myself because it was what I needed to atone for not forgiving her. I learned that there are things you can do even after people are gone to make up for your wrongdoings through The Kite Runner. “I stumbled down the hallway, Sohrab's little hand in mine” (pg 291) Amir said after saving Sohrab. Amir saved Hassan’s son to atone for leaving Hassan in the alley. Hassan may have been gone, but Amir still strived to atone for the past mistake he had made. This influenced me because I never thought I could fix anything since she was gone. She may have taken herself out of this world but I am still here. I may not have forgiven my mom for the things she did when she was here,