It is July 27, 2017 and today would have been our 22nd month together. It has been a week since we broke up and I can honestly say that I’m doing okay. The first few days I wanted to crawl into a cave and stay there for the rest of my life. You breaking up with me was the hardest thing I have ever been through; not even Jordan and Anna’s deaths compared to the amount of pain I have experienced over the past week. There was a lot of frustration, sadness, and even a little bit of hate built up inside my body. You were my person and I thought I would spend the rest of my life with you. You were so important to me. I would do anything to spend forever on Earth with you, but everything changed in the blink of an eye. In a matter of a few seconds, I went from designing our dream house to brainstorming ideas of how I could keep from losing my best friend. …show more content…
I know it sounds stupid, but it was a sense of closure for me so I could accept the fact that it was over. Once I settle in at college and all of this blows over, I don’t care if you want to add me back because I do want to be friends, just for the time being I think it’s best if we don’t for now. I came across this verse on Twitter and it said, “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand - Isaiah 41:10.” This verse gave me a sense of comfort because God will be with me no matter what, and He will always love me no matter what. Lawson, you are a great guy and have so much potential in life and the girl you do find, love and settle down with will be a very lucky girl. Try not to stray too far away from Him because He will always be there for you, just like He will be for me. I wish you the best in life, and be sure to cherish the moments you have this last year in high