It only took one drunken episode for Nicole to realize she had found a new way to finally feel comfortable in her life. She wasn’t any longer worried or anxious, she was giggly and unconcerned about the trouble she got into with her parents. She felt that being drunk was fun and perhaps a little dangerous. She continued to drink, even going as far as stealing a car and wrecking it when she was fifteen. As long as she was drunk, she thought she was happy. Drinking progressed to smoking marijuana. Pretty soon, she was drinking every day and smoking pot a few times a week. But when she abused these drugs, she wasn’t content with just getting a little high. She would abuse these substances until she was completely messed up. Somehow, Nicole …show more content…
“I got off heroin by shooting methamphetamine. I was really proud of myself but I was shooting meth day and night. Then I’d get off meth but my alcoholism really shot up.” It all came to an end while Nicole was back living at her parents’ house. She was 30 years old and she had nothing. She would go months without seeing her son and not even realize how long it had been. She hated waking up each morning, she just simply didn’t even want to breathe any more. She’s start drinking as soon as her parents left for work in the morning, and when they came home at night, she would leave the house and go use cocaine with friends. In a last-ditch effort to get sober, she began to look on the internet for a different kind of rehab program than she had been to before. If it didn’t work, she would have at least given it a try and she could drink herself to death afterwards—that was her twisted logic at the time. Her search took her to Narconon. She talked to a woman who had been through several rehabs herself, before she found Narconon. Nicole commented, “I knew that woman had been like me and she wasn’t any more and she said I could have that too. These people knew what I was going through. I just knew I had to go to this place.” With her parents’ help, she soon arrived at