Innocence. The thing that seperates the people we become as life moulds us from the people we were born as.
Innocence. So often stripped away by events beyond our control.
Innocence. That which I have stolen from a young girl. Yet, had I not, she would now be dead.
Innocence. That is what shown in the eyes of Mission Vao the first time we met. Sure, she understood the ugly realities of the world, but she'd never seen them first hand. She'd seen depravities commited in the name of survival, in the name of a power struggle, but she'd never seen atrocities commited simply for the sake of sating an evil urge to destroy and harm.
Innocence. I stripped it from her the day I asked her to join me. I dragged her through the flames of hell and forced
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Her blue eyes look up and sparkle happily as they meet my own acidic green.
"Revan. We heading out?" I feel the weight of reality crash upon my shoulders as I step into the cabin and drop onto the foot of the bed. In spite of everything, she's still ready to follow me into hell and beyond if I ask.
"No Mission. I just wanted to talk." I smile softly though it never reaches my eyes. The way she lowers herself beside me, I can tell she knows something's wrong. By the Forefathers, what did I do to deserve such a loyal companion?
"Revan...... something's on your mind. But I can't think what it could be. We saved Bastilla, secured the Star Forge, regained your Empire from Malak, so why aren't you pleased?" Her hand found its way to my knee and I sighed at her soft touch. Like the sound of her voice, it was soothing.
"Mission, I feel the weight of my decisions bearing upon me. I've pulled you all through the muck and the murk in order to achieve my goals. When my mind restored itself, I had hoped things would be different. But it seems it was impossible." With a soft smile I place my hand atop her much smaller one and squeeze her blue fingers with a gentle
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you're letting the pain overtake you. Didn't you once say that for the good of the galaxy we must control our own emotions, rather than let them rule over us?" Smiling softly at me the young twi'lek leaned against my arm. Without thinking about it I shifted so she slid into the crook of my neck and my arm wrapped around her protectively.
"Mission.... it is easy to preach and help others to follow your guidance. But, there is nothing harder in the galaxy than for one to follow their own advice." With a slow sigh I stand and walk towards the back wall of her cabin before pressing my forehead against the cold metal.
"Mission.... you, Juhani, Bastilla, HK, and Zaalbar are the only ones who stayed at my side. Canderous left to go play king among his people, Jolee died from the strain on his old heart, and Carth betrayed me. Why Mission? I turned against the Republic again. Everything you love. Why do you still follow me?" Without realizing it I had let my voice rise until I was nearly yelling. With a rage filled growl I slammed my fist into the wall and let out a choking