I feared my first code blue, I dreaded the day it would actually come. It was something I had never experienced before, and the unknown of it all made me uneasy. I constantly thought I wouldn’t know what to do, or I’ll forget everything and freeze up. I thought will I cry? will I scream? And the worst thought, all nurses I am sure has thought, “will my patient die.” Every tangible and intangible repercussion of a code I not only thought about, but in detail played out each outcome in my head. And then the day finally came, “Medical alert, code blue, 3rd floor, Room#___,” I cannot tell you exactly the chain of events that followed but one thing I can say for certain is, I saw a whole other side of me I seized to know that existed until those