INTJ. Trying to find meaning in the acronym has proved complex, intellectual, and most of all, lonely. Making sense of it by using a Myers-Briggs personality indicator sits as my rationale, however flawed and unscientific it is. Well worth the research, this acronym continues to shape a reliable but flexible reason for the character I’ve grown into. Sprouting into adolescence transforms the mind, making it dig for a reason and ethos to inhibit. My characteristic of rationality made me idealistic, even almost leaving cynicism in its wake. Though this characteristic seems negative to my arch rival, society, showing concern and wanting the best for the world seems to only speaks compassion one has for others. These adolescent struggles I’ve …show more content…
I’ve been rewarded for these struggles I’ve made myself in physical, thoughtful, and infinitely complex interpersonal ways. My patience for keeping my idealism strong during my childhood years has educationally rewarded me with a trip to Springfield with my state-worthy Walgreens history fair project in 2014. Standing there in the jumbo ballroom with my exhibit blazoned with the endless rows of others’ journeys speak an experience that an individual simply cannot forget. Perhaps the lone education award I graciously received and inked by the President of the United States at my 8th grade awards ceremony is a proper reward to make a worthwhile experience. Maybe even the title I’ve held for the Big Shoulders Beeson scholarship since 6th grade unveiled something special even I had not realized, as I believed at the time skepticism was warranted when my young self heard of the scholarship’s benefits. Regrettably, my transformed self realizes these experiences themselves were not the embroidered ticket to satisfying my ideals. These “grandiose” achievements fall short of the value of the profusion of mental revelations one can discover in life’s