I just got back from the Coming Home Retreat in the Sacred Heart Novitiate, and I had three extremely significant experiences.
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One thing that Sir Bobby Guev pointed out was that we are always trying to look for God. We always try to seek God so we can better love Him. We always try to search in the deepest parts of our hearts to look for Him. But this is not necessary. God always finds ways to connect with us, to touch us, to remind us that we are loved.
The world we live in is noisy and fast-paced. We often find ourselves piled on by different thing we need to do. More often that not, our daily activities consume us whole, which is why God cannot seem to find us amidst all the things piling on us. He is always simply there
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At first, I was simply praying, reflecting on the lyrics of the song as it was playing. When the song reached the words “Ako ang Panginoon mo at Diyos, tagapagligtas mo at tagatubos” during the first verse when the song was starting to build on intensity, I experienced an upwelling of emotions I have never experienced before. I couldn’t explain why it happened, nor can I explain how I simply teared up in the middle of the song. I tried to suppress the emotion, but to no end. It grew even more intense until I was down on my knees crying, feeling extremely unworthy to be in God’s presence at that …show more content…
I thought it would be a really good reflection if I discover my rootedness on what I do. And so I started my prayer period begging for the “grace of deep gratitude for the Father’s love” and to “be moved, as the Father’s beloved child, to live, love, and serve with joy.”
I spent quite a lot of time thinking about what specific things I do to serve others and why I do these things. For every specific way of service to others I could think of, I tried to reflect and trace back these acts to the very cause of why I do it. At first, it was quite frustrating when I really couldn’t trace these acts of service to their cause. It made me doubt whether I do these acts simply for myself or for others.
After a period of reflection and after a lot of struggles trying to point back toward the root of my acts of service, I could only conclude one thing: I serve because I want to