In her story “GSW,” Moreno claims that a traumatic night on the job led to an eye-opening dream. Moreno was a first time employee when she and her partner were called to the scene of an unidentified gunshot victim. During a terrifying drive in the ambulance, they hit a bump on the road which later was the cause of the victim’s death at the hospital. After differing in opinions with her fellow co-worker about who has the right to live or die and whether the gangbanger that they tried to help that night should have lived, Moreno fell into deep slumber. In her sleep, she had a dream about the John Doe victim (605-606). I believe that Moreno had this dream because she felt guilty and thought she was capable of doing more for the John Doe, so …show more content…
This quotation shows the limitations that she felt once she did what her job required her to do; as an emergency medical technician her task was to transport him. When an accident happens an EMT tries everything possible to make sure the injured person has the greatest chance of surviving. Moreno was put in the situation where she had to sit and do nothing until they reached the hospital; this resulted in a feeling of guilt caused by her incapability to serve a larger purpose in the incident. Next Moreno states, “ And where was he in the midst of all this? Forgotten. A John Doe dead. A policeman’s empty notebook” (605). This quotation shows the vulnerability of the John Doe victim. He is much like an empty vessel, powerless, and not able to provide the necessary information which will attach him to his identity. Since he was in the middle of all this chaos without a voice to call out for help, Moreno wanted to be that voice, but she wasn’t able to because she was a rookie, so her opinion wouldn’t be taken under consideration. This situation leads to the death of the John Doe, guilt building up within her, and causing her to have the dream of the victim. The dream gave her a chance to help John Doe, to possibly …show more content…
First Moreno says, “John Doe was lying on the floor still naked but cleaned up no sign of blood or brain or even the wound for that matter, and his skin and tattoos were gleaming “(606). Dreams are a way for people to tap into their subconscious. They allow them to create, destroy, and or change anything which happened in reality that they don’t feel at peace with. In the dream that Moreno had, her guilt and remorse for what happened to the victim morphed itself into John Doe allowing her to change the path she took. The state in which she found him granted Moreno the opportunity to get past the sight of blood and focus on helping John Doe and allowed her to be more productive in the efforts to save his life.. Also the author observes “his eyes were closed, he wasn’t yet dead, but alive either, and whatever life existed, in him was in the form of a kind of coiled-up and angry tension someone part of him refused to let go” (606). The embodiment of her feelings presented themselves to Moreno in a way in which she could understand. They were from the event that happened earlier, leaving her in a similar position to the victim in the ambulance. She also did not want to let go of the guilt she felt of failing the John Doe. This is why he is staying alive through her dreams. Last Moreno adds, “I nudged him, his body