In Toni Morrison’s Song of Solomon, both Susan and Milkman strive to escape reality, but do so in fundamentally different ways. Susan, despite her mixed roots and black relatives, harbors visible distaste towards people with black skin, and desperately tries to separate herself from her own blackness. Paradoxically, the more she attempts to dissociate herself from her identity, the more entrenched in her ancestry she becomes. In contrast, Milkman attempts to run away from the false narrative imposed upon him by his father’s occupation and whiteness in his search for a “pot of gold”. While he does not ultimately find the “pot of gold”, he does find himself, literally running toward his heritage and the black town of Shalimar. Thus, Milkman’s …show more content…
Milkman’s initial reasoning for going on his journey was that he wanted the gold. Milkman was originally set on his mission by his father, who wished to have the gold, but over time Milkman’s intentions shifted from simple greed to a desire for freedom. Talking to Guitar about his newfound desire to get the gold on page 288 (PDF), Milkman says “I just know that I want to live my own life. I don’t want to be my old man’s office boy no more. And as long as I’m in this place I will be. Unless I have my own money.” Macon Jr. is on multiple occasions said to behave like a white person, and it is implied that he intends for Milkman to take over the business once he can’t work anymore, and that Milkman’s quest is just as much about Milkman finding himself as it is about finding the gold. On the other hand, through the phrases “my own life” and “my own money” it is clear that Milkman still considers money to be absolutely essential to his life, perpetuating the idea that he, just like his father, behaves more like a white person than a black person. In Milkman’s journey, he runs away from this perceived whiteness and its location (his home) and goes towards Shalimar, a distinctly black town deeply connected to his family. During the journey, Milkman’s suit and his gold watch, two things relating to Milkman’s whiteness, are torn up and lost. In the end, instead of finding gold, he finds his family’s history and his own identity as a black