Definition Essay On Loneliness

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Worryness.Envy.Frustration.Anxiety. Moodiness.Loneliness. Has there ever been a day where I haven't felt one of these things? I don't believe so. My neuroticism is a component to my persona that never seems to escape me, no matter the circumstance. It’s significance is sickening at times. Going to school has never been easy for me, never something I have excelled at, never been a place I have felt comfortable in. Students stress constantly about their grades, and strive for acceptance from their teachers, but that is the least of my worries when going to school. Never does the idea that I am dumber, or less significant than everyone else leave my mind. The 2016 AP United States History exam was coming up, and, the feelings I had prior to it, …show more content…

It’s not like there hasn't been any time to prepare for it, right? Of course there has been, there's been almost a whole year. That didn't stop me from not studying though! You know, you’re told those who have good study habits, and retain a plethora of knowledge on something, are the best and the brightest. The feeling that that stereotype leaves me with, is a feeling of emptiness. I’m not the smartest, I never have been. This test had made me feel the dumbest as I have felt in a while. So I didn't study for this exam, or really even follow along this curriculum all year. Fine! I guess it was time to be a teen, and cram. Cram for the biggest exam of the year. Learn thousands of years of my country’s history, within one week. Why oh why did I wait this long? My nights consisted of the same thing for the four days prior to the AP United States History exam. I would go up to the (actually quite comfortable) wooden desk in my room, open all of the