How Decisions Generate Growth

Some decisions generate growth.

Sometimes we are unaware how the decisions we make in our past can sorely affect our futures. For me, I never knew that a decision made in fifth grade would mold my entire life, my mentality and my perception on all that is around me. My life has always been slightly complicated: with most of my family living in New York, my father, my step sisters, my cousins and so on, meanwhile I was living in Virginia with my mother and my three brothers. Since I was a young girl I have always valued family for they have always showered me with love and made me feel at home no matter where we were. And as a fifth grade child with no clue as to how consequence unfolds I walked into my mother's room to lay with her as I did every day after school, and spoke

However, my mother shook her head, agreed with me and gave me a hug, she knew it was best for me to be completely surrounded by the mass amounts of family I had in New York versus Virginia. At this time even as a young child I knew I was my own person, an individual who was capable of making decisions for myself and striving to make them work because failure has never been an option for me - I wouldn't let my mother down. My goal was to make my mother proud of me, she had always admired my individuality and how I "lit up a room whenever I walked in" she never wanted my spark to dull or for me to feel as if I was alone in this world. Of course when I moved to New York I adapted without any problems, I made friends rather fast, and began a strong relationship with my youngest sister who seemed to hate the world in its entirety, except for me. I was her idol - another person I could never let down. As time went on and I grew older it only seemed that everyone depended on me even more, all eyes were on me to get the perfect grades to be the most polite,