When you lose sight of your faith in the midst of frustration and confusion, you find the identity that lies within yourself. While Elie experienced and overcame numerous obstacles during the Holocaust, he changed. He was no longer the same innocent child that once believed so strongly in God and cared so much for his father. He was no longer the hopeful and joyful little boy he once had been. Elie changed in the midst of inhumanity and horror; he became someone he never thought he would have to become. Silence, something so quiet, but yet says so much. Elie was silent, although he wanted to scream, to yell, and to say something. Instead he stayed silent; he did not utter a single word. Elie said “As I bit my lips in order not to howl in …show more content…
In the beginning, he was disgusted with the incalculable sons that left their fathers behind. They had left them for the wolves, for them to be shot because maybe they were not running fast enough. How much their fathers had sacrificed for them and they all betrayed them. As Elie witnessed the boys abandoning their own blood, he prayed. For the first time in a long time, Elie prayed. He prayed to the God in which he no longer believed in. He said “Oh God master of the Universe, give me the strength never to do what Rabbi Eliahus’s son has done” (weisel pg 91). This shows that Elie wanted to believe that he would never do that, but little did he know that that was soon to change. Elie later said “If only I were relieved of this responsibility, I could use all of my strength to fight for my own survival, to take care of only myself”’. This shows that he thought about leaving his father behind, and that he didn’t care as much about his father as he did in the beginning of their long journey. As Elie was pondering on this thought he began to feel guilty, but he could not help but feel a scant of curiosity. He thought about what it would be like not to have the weight of such a colossal responsibility on his shoulders. Deep down Elie knew his father could not do it alone; he needed Elie, it was a vital piece in Schomo surviving. This is not what Elie was …show more content…
He stated “For the first time I felt anger rising with in me, why should I sanctify his name? The almighty, the eternal and terrible master of the Universe, chose to be silent. What as there to thank him for” After witnessing countless hangings, victims of starvation, and hopeless corpses, he did not have a shadow of a doubt that God was not attendant and he would not answer Elie’s prayers. What was the point in praying if God would only let you suffer? Can you really blame Elie for not believing in God; when all he has ever been told is God will never give you anything you cannot handle? The Master of the Universe had betrayed him and gave him nothing but misery. Elie and his father had suffered year after year and still no sign of God had come about. All Elie saw in the eyes of the hopeless victims was innocence. With everything happening around him, the burning of the children, the beaten and petrified women, the enslaved men that could not defend themselves. With all of that happening and God still was not here. How was Elie supposed to place his confidence in a merciful God if in the times that these people need him the most, he was nowhere to be found? So, as Elie made his way through one battle after another; he could not help but think that there is no