Pain is a feeling that is an inevitable life experience, no matter how young or old you may be it is something that you can never escape. Whether it be physical pain or mental pain it will follow you wherever you go. Many of the painful things that we have face we try to suppress, we think of it as something “unlucky” that happened to us, or blame ourselves or other people and try to move on with our lives. Those are four things that I am undeniably guilty of. Today I am an eighteen-year-old woman, and when I was a thirteen-year-old child I became a victim of sexual assault. It was never something that I spoke about with other people and even when it happened I never told a soul until recently. My parents are divorced and the summer of 2011 my mom sent me to go stay with my dad and his family in Houston, a trip that was supposed to last only two weeks turned into a month. As time went on I began calling my mom to come get me and take me home I was getting extremely homesick and towards the end is when the assault took place. …show more content…
Inevitably as time went on I began to struggle with the truth and I finally admitted to myself what had actually happened. I was raped. After that I began to put all the blame on myself, I began thinking what did I do wrong, why did I deserve that, and what could I have done differently. While I was busy blaming myself simultaneously I began to blame others unknowingly, especially my mother. When I think about it now I mostly blamed her for not taking me home when she said she was going to I felt abandoned. After realizing I began doing that I became very rebellious, did not really care about anything, had a very short temper and would fight my mother for