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I haven't always been Christian. I grew up in a catholic home. It was very religious, but we did go to church and I did go to Sunday school for a while. My mom taught me the basics about Jesus and prayer so thankfully I always knew He existed and I did always talk to Him knowing He was listening to me.
I was also adopted from Guatemala and my parents got divorced when I was little. It was just my mom, brother, and myself when we moved here to Long Beach, CA. For some reason I always felt like the black sheep of the family. I never did good in school and even got held back a grade because I was always absent. My focus for sure was not education. I remember in about 4th or 5th grade I used to get bullied by a girl
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Later on in middle school I tried weed and everything started going down hill.I started ditching school, smoking weed, lying to my mom, getting suspended for drugs...I even ran away once. I always had a lot of rage and anger and I used to throw things and break things when I was angry. I lost my virginity at age 14 and became sexually active. In High School I continued on in my ways and got pregnant at the age of 15 and had a miscarriage. That was when I "really walked away from God" and didn't want anything to do with Him. Shortly after I got pregnant again and had my 1st child...but I still didn't return to God. After High School (which I didn't finish) I got addicted to crystal meth and experimented with stronger drugs as well such as smoking heroin, pills, extacy, shrooms. THIS is when I started hitting rock bottom because I got so addicted and started messing with witchcraft. I was looking for answers in all the wrong places and was led to a bunch of lies. Finally I got so fed up with it and quietly prayed to God in my mind and asked for His forgiveness, I asked Him to HELP ME because I couldn't help myself and I was too addicted to drugs, but didn't want to go to