The day I began highschool was a day I thought would be like any other but little did I know it would be a day that would change my life forever, a day that would take a turn for the worst. I remember my life before highschool; calm, eventful, interesting, and sometimes exciting. I had a few friends which I loved spending time with and kept close, the bond I had with my family was strong, I was full of energy and motivation, but most importantly, I was in good health. During the first day of school I was excited and focused on what I was going to do and I was certain I would stick to the plans I had for my future. I started off with good grades, A's and B's, and never settled for anything lower. I was always on track with the assignments …show more content…
I tried my best to make it seem like I was untroubled or cheery. The friends I had for such a long time started to realize that I was unwanted, put down, and laughed at so they started keeping their distance from me until I completely lost them; they did not want to be seen with me, I was an embarassment to them, a burden. That was when I started changing; I couldn't eat because I was so dissapointed in myself, I couldn't have a single bite because I felt so disgusting. I spent so much time looking into a mirror trying to figure out what was wrong with me and why people hated me so much. I didn't sleep thinking about how I was going to get through the next day, the stress piled up and I decided to take it out on me by self harm. I started spending more and more time alone in my room not wanting to talk to my siblings or my parents, crying every night, hating myself more and more. When I went out in public I felt as if every single person was staring at me and judging me. I felt cold, I started sweating and shaking, I breathed heavily, my heartbeat was rapid, I felt sick to my stomach while going through panic attacks everyday fearing what would happen the next day I would have to go to