I don’t remember how I got here, one moment I’m running around in a garden of roses with the love of my life and the next I’m sitting pondering the raindrops on the ground as salty drops cascade down my cheeks. My past, is almost as if it were a different life, inhabited only through present memories. In my childhood, my mother always told me to follow my heart and so I followed it several times, once, I even followed it to Rebecca Carner’s house. She eventually told me to go home and so during the long walk home the only thought bouncing around in my head was what I did wrong? I had many useless encounters with love such as the one with Rebecca Carner but never-the-less I kept trying. It was only until I met Kate, that I realized I had not