The Things I Carry Insecurity

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Everyone carries something different. Whether it’s a physical object or an object in their mind it has a significant meaning to that person. In terms of what I carry, I carry insecurity. All my life I have been bigger than my classmates, between my height in elementary school or my weight overall, I was always different. This has been very difficult for me because people are extremely judgmental. My classmates often acted like they didn’t see me as any different from them but behind my back they talked about every difference and the fact that I needed to change. Weight is something that can be changed but for me it has always been very hard. It’s extremely difficult to know that people are talking about you and how you look. Bringing people down and ruining their self-esteem because they are different is not acceptable. People shouldn’t be defined by their weight or what they look like but sadly that’s what has become important in society. I have experienced that when people talk about your insecurities behind your back it becomes extremely difficult to trust people because you think they are going to end up being judgmental and talking about you, just like everyone else. …show more content…

My insecurities brought me sadness because I never knew if I had any true friends. I always expected people to be nice to my face and make fun of me behind my back. Having insecurities about my weight was also very difficult because I didn’t know whether I should trust myself or the people around me who told me I needed to lose weight and change. When I was young it was very depressing to be surrounded by people who did not accept me for who I was, my self-esteem became extremely low and I did not want to go anywhere. My insecurities have brought me sadness and made me feel extremely