Throughout the novel Toni struggles with finding herself. In the beginning of the book Toni is gender queer and has a girlfriend. The people at her school just knew that she was a lesbian but only her close friends knew that she was genderqueer. As she takes her journey o finding herself she uses different pronouns to describe herself and others. When she goes to Harvard she joins a Gay Straight Alliance Club and meets people that are figuring themselves out like her or already figured themselves out. A couple weeks into college she makes a lot of new friends that are also transgender and Toni starts to think about identifying as male permanently like them. Although she thinks about the decision alot she has a hard time deciding if