To me control means having someone or something having the total power to control how you make your everyday decisions and you not really having a say so in any descions in your life. I feel like alot of people and things have control over my descions in my life. My boss is a big factor in the control over my life. I feel like she doesnt not want me to succeed and just wants me to work at my job forever and never better myself. Its to the point that she doesnt even know that im in school. Im hesident to tell her because I feel like she going to try to talk me out of going to school. I actually realized that I was being control when I have to keep things hidden from my boss because im afraid of the outcome and her trying to talk me out of it and if i don't do as she says I might get my hours cut or fired. …show more content…
Im actully trying to gain self control in my life because im just really tried of everybody having a say so in how I should live my life. It shoudnt have to be that way it my life not theirs so how should someone have a say so. It just really hard because im so used to giving in and not making arguments out of things. I feel like I have no voice. Im honselty so used to having someone else having a say so in every little thing that I do its going to be diffulcult making my own descions I do not want to upset my friends and family, making them mad at me over my not doing what they want me to do. I need to try to speak up and tell them that im going to do it my way and if I fail ts just a learning experaince. I have a external locus of control on my life. I blame anything around me on all the bad decsions I make rather than myself. Its been that way since i was a teenager I feel its just easier blaming someone else instead of my just blaming my self. I just rather put the blame on others than myself even if it makes me feel less as a