“To define is to limit.”(Oscar Wilde) And to limit is to define, so I shall not do that to myself. I am numerous simple people in one complex vessel. Connecting these people living inside of me has been the challenge of my young life. One day, these people will connect and form aspects of myself that I will love and accept.
From a small age, I have never wanted to be me; I saw the great qualities in people that I wanted and pretended to be like those people. When I was young, it was all good, but now it leaves me confused as to who I really am. I can say what I like and do not like and hope that people will pigeonhole me, but I realize that I do not want that; I want write about this world than live in it, I want to play music all day and wander
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Over time, each one of these people alive inside me come through at the most peculiar times. It always intrigues me when who comes out when. There are other parts, however, ranging anywhere on the personality spectrum, but these are the three that are redundant.
When it comes to the relaxed carefree me, I am in a state of nostalgia. I’m a daydreamer and a night thinker. Philosophy and existentialism romp in my mind and I am nothing, except happy. I delve into quantum mechanics and feel infinitely better about my existence. Some refer to this me as dreamy me as I am always in a daze of thought. It is not a daydream out of boredom, no, never; it is a daydream of contemplation; it is an aspect of contemplation.
The edgy part of me loves to wear black, collect skulls, and learn anything about the unexplained. This part makes me confident, noticed, and dauntless. This part makes me want to go somewhere solitary and soundless and scream as loud as I can. This part makes me extroverted and loud; possibly annoying, but at least I have fun being so. This part is the one that only a select few