Why Did I Die?-Personal Narrative

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I thought I was going to die. This wasn’t the only thought racing through my mind as I woke up. The pain was unbearable. Today was supposed to be our day. Cheerleading State. Six months of struggling and persevering was supposed to pay off today. I had to get up. I slowly stumbled down the stairs gripping my lower back. The clock on the wall read 2:00 am. Perfect. Only eight hours until the competition. I sat at the bottom of the stairs and called for my parents. The echoes of my father’s voice, “Weakness isn’t tolerated” and “Suck it up, Addie” just made the pain worse. Eventually my mom drove me to the emergency room. I waited in the cold hard chairs in the hospital waiting room for what seemed like days. Eventually I was admitted. Only …show more content…

Five hours left. The results said that I had a kidney stone. Four hours. Eventually the pain returned. This time worse than ever. I thought that my kidneys were going to burst out of my body. They say that passing a kidney stone is similar in pain to childbirth. I thought it was worse. Three hours until the competition. The team was already there. Once my kidney stone passed, I was allowed to leave. I was given medicine and then my mom and I sped to Denver so I could compete. I got to the competition right as my team was about to go on. I quickly warmed up and joined my team on the mat. I had two minutes and 30 seconds to prove myself and it went by quick. My stunt group and I threw up one stunt after another. As the last beat hit, I knew I had done the best I could despite passing a kidney stone hours earlier. However, I didn’t know that the rest of my team had not been able to finish in unison. We took 49th in State that year. Second to last. We were a joke, a failure. Failure is often defined as proving unsuccessful, but failure felt more like an embarrassment. It was degrading. I thought I did everything I could to perform well at the state competition and to help my team. I just forgot one thing: Failure doesn’t define who I am as a person, but it sculpts the human I can become. I realized a fixed mindset wouldn’t help me or our team succeed. We needed a growth