Amir Sawyer Character Analysis

Additionally, like guilt, revenge also controls a person’s life but due to the constant feeling of anger, rather than remorse. Revenge is a deadly sin that when presided in someone will be the driving force behind their actions and thoughts. Throughout season 1 and 2 of the hit television show lost, we see how retaliation is a necessary demand to Sawyer’s (James Ford, his real name) character. Before the plane crash at the young age of eight, a con artist by the name of Mr. Sawyer deceived James parents into stealing all their savings. And while James hid under the bed, his dad murdered his mother then continued to commit suicide in front of him; destroying his family and his childhood. That day James wrote message to the swindler exclaiming

It wasn’t guilt or vengeance that I was overcoming, but an addiction. Don’t get too scared I wasn’t like Charlie getting high off heroine, singing “You are everybody!!”(Lost) Rather my addiction involved weed, alcohol, netflix, basically anything I could do in order to escape responsibility. I thought I was free doing that, but like Amir and Sawyer it took painful events resulted in/from deluded judgment in order for me to get on track. I don’t know why I found procrastination to be so exciting; at first it wasn’t too bad. But then as one continues to go down a bad path, it usually progresses until BAM! It smacks you in the face. I got smacked in the face about 3 weeks ago. Sure in the past I’ve had bad grades, crashed cars, and got caught from smoking to animal cruelty but those circumstances alone aren’t life changing, at most there mildly traumatic. But it wasn’t until all of my wrong doings were exposed within a 3 day period that I actually started to notice how carelessness affects me. First I totaled my car, then my parents found too much drug paraphernalia, next I found out I not only failing more than half my classes, and also that I was extremely close to getting kicked off the Europe trip. Basically, my life was at an all-time low. Like Amir and Sawyer my plight for redemption, brought upon by difficult circumstances allowed not only my emotions, but my mind to change in order for me to expand my moral compass. Still I was procrastinating, smoking; trying to do anything I could to escape any responsibility. It wasn’t until I started looking out for my friend “Bob” that I realized how much of a fraud/hypocrite I was. Here is a perfect example of my whole life, I was putting others over myself. This isn’t a bad quality. But it hits a certain point that my life, my health, my well-being was at risk because I