The amount of anxiety my whale gives me is insurmountable by anything else in my life. The whale makes me want to stay in bed and never leave my home while at the same time getting me out and forcing me to go to school. I absolutely despise it yet it is essential to me. My whale consists of a variety of feelings and annoyances that knowingly many teenagers have, a simple name for it would be social anxiety. Captain Ahab of the Pequod in Moby Dick is an excellent analogy for this feeling I have. The man exhibits complete hatred towards Moby Dick, a whale that had devoured his leg, yet the whale seems to be the only reason he is still out at sea (Moby Dick). Simply put, I care too much about what everyone has to say and it impacts my daily life. …show more content…
A sample of what this consists of is constant yet subconscious monitoring of who is in my immediate vicinity, what kind of a connection I have with them relationship wise, what kind of mood they seem to be in, and what I think they think about me in the particular moment. The constant thoughts running through my head give me little time to actually talk to peers making me wish there was a simple solution to this problem. Captain Ahab is shown as having complete anger and bitterness towards his whale as he kills most of his crew just for the chance of vengeance (Moby Dick). I would do absolutely anything to rid of the constant dread my whale gives me. Many believe that people are shy because they are introverted and simply do not enjoy the company of others. If this were the case my whale would not even matter to me but the truth is that I love nothing more than the company of friends and family. My anger towards my whale is fueled by the constriction of my interaction towards other human beings. I recently started a job where being sociable was a necessity and because of this I have made more friends at the workplace than I have in my last few years in high