Mental/Inner Cinema (1990-1996) Years went by. Jimmy turned into Jim, later James. He followed in his father's footsteps and especially the Internet became more and more his element. He loved it at least as much as Carl Powers had loved the water, yes, he felt like a fish in the water - but even more: In it he found everything he'd sought after: poisons, secret weapons, untold treasures and people with special skills, people with unfulfilled desires, people full of greed, full of wrath, people with dark cold hearts, like his. Except him. He didn't find him. James occupied his restless spirit and his empty, sick heart in any possible way. By now he regretted not having visited the theater AG at his school, but he had guessed that his father …show more content…
'Ah, Dorian! You had everything! You had eternal youth and a cold, unwavering heart! How could you reject these priceless treasures? I know well what I would have done in his place!', Jim thought from time to time. He even valued some of the aphorisms. Only the immoral ones, of course. His favorite quote was and remained: "To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance." A good slogan, but it could not delude Jim into believing in it. He was longing for the one, who was destined for him. And then there was a work of Oscar Wilde, to whom he had a very peculiar relationship: Salome! He had anything left over for some violent stories from the Bible and it had come to that as follows: Jim's godfather was a priest. (And what else could he be, he was the idiot in the family!) From the beginning on he had tried to do the job conscientiously. But he very well noticed, that he only bored little Jimmy with all these stories of the dear Lord Jesus. In order to still somehow inspire him for the Bible, he had gone over to try the most bloodthirsty stories of the Old Testament. Later, a few narratives of the New Testament as the Temptation of Christ or the Passion actually piqued Jim's interest. But what in particular was fascinating the boy that much, was hidden from the religious