Dylan Klebold was the exact opposite. He was hotheaded but depressive and suicidal. He blamed himself for his problems. Dylan grew up in a loving household that was completely gun free. He wasn’t even allowed to play with toy guns as a child. Dylan’s journal provides a deeper look into his internal thoughts. Dylan was different than Eric in his journal. Where Eric was narcissistic and coldblooded, Dylan was writing about how lonely he was and how he was depressed. “Eric drew pictures of weapons, swastikas, and soldiers; Dylan drew hearts. Eric lusted after sex and fantasized about rape; Dylan longed for true love” (Why Kids Kill, Langman).
The difference between the two boys “is in what Eric thinks and how Dylan thinks,” says Langman. Dylan wrote about being lonely and having no luck with girls when in reality, he was well liked by many students and staff. He had many friends whom he hung out with on a regular basis. He voiced his fears of fitting in quite constantly in his journals and the fear was not caused by bullying as he was
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He was “Dylan Bennet Klebold” and the other as if it were an entity in Dylan’s body that was speaking when “Dylan Bennet Klebold” wasn’t. With the idea of not being human, comes the idea of being a god. On May 21st, 1997, he wrote: “I am GOD compared to some of those un-existable brainless zombies. Yet, the actions of them interest me, like a kid with a new toy.” He talks like he has found a way to be amused at the humility of humanity, as if it is a way to cope with not feeling human. “Dylan’s defense against the anguish of being an outsider-of being abnormal-was to elevate his outsider status into a benefit, as if he were superior to ordinary humans,” (Why Kids Kill, Langman). Here we see the commonality between Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold. They both had need to feel superior against the threats to their