Standing over the coffin, smelling the crisp cool air, seeing nothing but black clothing, and hearing sobs in the distant, I learned what grief was. Grief is the time your body takes to accept that someone is gone, experiencing heartache, pain, and sadness. Which is what I saw in everyone standing over my father, yet everything in your body, mind, and entire being brings you back to the moments they were alive. When I think of you now, I picture a father, a painful illness, but most of all I think of memories. Strong, brave, and loving, exactly what I picture when you come to mind. Someone who makes sure their kids have everything they need and more. My father work for American Motors Corporation for over ten years and then became a self-employed …show more content…
As you know my father worked for American motor Company for many years. Well over the years of working for the company just to find out there was an abundant amount of asepsis, which was used as insulation when the build was first built. This asepsis got digested into my father’s body from working around it, breathing in the air, and contact with clothing. Thus, causing it to turn into cancer, which the lungs and pancreas couldn’t break down, leading to multiple build ups of tumors eating away at his pancreas, lungs, and so on to other organs. As kids, we didn’t notice the effect it had until his hair started to fall out, he began to slow down when playing, and finally he was bald. My mother thought having him hospitalized at home would make it so we could spend more time together, but honestly it made it worse. Knowing he was in pain and that we couldn’t fix it, or couldn’t touch him because he was always in pain. We thought chemotherapy would help by eating away at the cancer cells, but it just made him sicker. It began to make is body ache, followed by constant throwing up, and finally leading to gangrene. Which was caused by lack of oxygen, due to the tumors in his lungs, thus leading to the skin to decay and become lifeless, almost as lifeless as he