Mindless Me Monologue

Me

Nobody likes being alone right? Well loneliness is the only mess I’m in. Empty life with scattered thoughts, I’d clean my mind up but still be filled with your mindless thoughts. They’re all I got, my shadow reminds me of your reflection; dark and mysterious. You’d smile back and I’d hide mine, I know it killed you. I’d rather not hurt you even with pleasure. It’s my pleasure to say you’re a treasure, sadly you set sailed and left me with me. Who’s gonna swim in this ocean filled love for you? I hope every word you read makes you fear love. Each letter of my loneliness haunts you even when you see her. Each sentence stabs you in your throat while you swallow the guilt you placed in me. This pain in me, it’s hysterical really; I’m by myself

I mean some people will make you laugh like comedy and not even do stand-ups, but the funniest is when they leave you on that same stage while they resign as actors. Either way the blames on you, your priceless love got you wondering why people change on you. It’s like your mind and soul are auctioned but instead of getting offers..of love; no one’s willing to bail you out of this unacknowledged dump. It’s like picking out a suspicious face from that long selection, can’t tell real from fake — ‘cause either way their antidote will be injected into your blood stream till their love screams for you, surprisingly you’ll only go deaf from the silence they leave in you. We want wireless communication but never hold the line for them, we hang up and talk to people who don’t even value the smile on them — that you designed on them. Unappreciated art goes a long way, they change lanes so quick then try to drive back but you kindly point them towards the wrong way. You’re tired of people parking in your heart without providing valid thoughts, they come and accelerate through your mind so quick not realizing your engines stopped. You’re left in shock; all those magnetic attractions we create turn out to be the most unattractive of all. You’re not the only one who’s been told you’re the only one. I mean

I’m scared of you, you’re awful. So ungrateful to the livelihood of this life we know; I pity you. I hope you fall in trust so hard that you regret the incoming love you ignored in the past. Don’t come near me, your killer looks got me steering in your direction. I’m too nervous to pull the clutch and crash into your love. Please.. stop making me like you even when you got zero bit of loves’ substance inside you, but that smile… why do you have to look like that? Every time I turn around you get me to look right back. I’m afraid of your heart; it’s dangerous. The way it beats, it’s not normal; got my eardrums hearing love like it’s foreign. I saw you peep into my tears, did you see an ocean? Did you want to stop time and have our time spent turn frozen? Only me, you and our fearful thoughts locked up in this imprisonment spot. I was afraid of being guilty for stealing your soul, but you already took mine and never made it home. I’m lost in your maze, it’s dark even in the day, why’d you leave me to be frightened of every thought of you that approaches my way? I’m so tired of pacing back and forth in an area so unknown. Thought you exited my mind but left your seed to grow inside.. me. Flower child with rotten fruits, never mind just don’t mind me. Our minds fear each other, that’s why we’re scared of one another. Tip toe away from my boundary, I still hold all your secrets in me so loudly.. but I’m quiet. You hear that silent fear of your sound? It’s