Dad, I know that you are not here on earth with us any more but, your spirit is still with us. I want to write something down that really hurt me over the years. This is very hard for me to do but, am going to do it. I don 't understand why you never protected me when Jimmy, had force himself on me. This happen when we all Lived in Kirtland. I had just got out of the shower and, Jimmy tossed himself on to me. Gina, must heard me screaming and, that when she came into my room and had caught him in the act. the second thing is: I also don 't understand why you never did anything about Derrick? I had told you that Derrick, would sneak into my room and rub his penis on my leg and, you told me that I was dreaming. Why would I dream about …show more content…
With everything that has happen to me you were never there for me. I was your daughter. All I ever wanted was your love as a dad. A few years after you had passed away. Terry my ex-husaband now. Took me to a lite house store and introduce me as Jim Bowen daughter. They never knew that you had a biological daughter, they only knew that you had a step daughter. That hurt as well. However, with me writing this down with help me to forgive you. Dad I will always love you and I forgive you Jimmy, I know that you are not here on earth with us any more but, your spirit is still with us. I want you to know that when we where children you had hurt me very much. When you had force yourself on me when we lived in Kirtland. Gina, heard me screaming and ran into the bed room and pulled you of me. When you would steal my clothes and sell the for drugs. Jimmy, you had put the fear in me and i was very scared of you. That is why I haven 't talked you for years. The reason I had contacted you was because I had no other choice. I needed you to sign the paper to have Dave Kelley removed as trustee. when you were staying with us you had brought all the fears back. especially when you and choked me when Jim was ice fishing. Jimmy, when I heard