A thought that encompasses nearly all my other thoughts, is the question of if I am doing something out of fear rather than love. I find this question valuable in understanding my approach to people as well as myself. With regard to making myself look good for this essay, I'd really like my answer to be of love (because that's way more virtuous) but truthfully most things are motivated by fear. Although, I'd like to clarify that my answer never really ends with fear, as I wouldn't be in college, writing this, if fear was all this I had. Concerning the relationship between occupational therapy and fear, this fear stems from self-doubt, the difficulties graduate school will present, and the likely pressure out of my comfortable place. Undoubtedly, these cause me unease. However, a heavier unease would eat me forever if I didn't dive towards occupational therapy – It's what I've wanted for a decade. …show more content…
From eight to twelve I lived with my grandmother (she took care of me while parents sorted themselves out.) She saved me from many things I would have endured had I lived with my parents - I still cry in gratitude for that. As she grew older, her fragility began to show, and soon, she would develop progressive cancer. It was a frightening and beautiful switch of roles, as I began to take care of her as she had done for me. It's painful to watch someone leave you without your choice nor theirs. The duration of her illness was an inevitable alarm clock that would eventually sound into loneliness for me, but more so, it was a valuable circumstance that I could take care of my grandmother. Not necessarily my ability to do it well, but rather that I was there to do it all. This experience has helped me to develop a gentleness I typically use with everyone. Both out of fear something will happen, as well a love for the time we can