Childhood is considered to be the time from when children: are born, through their teen years, and up until adulthood. During such time children should live free from fear, safe from violence and feel protected by their parents, especially their father; but that wasn’t my case. I was eight. My Dad was 43, and the roles of father and son, felt to me like they had reversed. The childhood every kid dreams of having (at least that is what I thought) was taken from me. My father was an alcoholic, which made a huge impact on how lived life during my so called childhood. He shattered the perfect mirror image I was to follow. Growing up in East Los Angeles, with an alcoholic father; my childhood became a nightmare. The father-son relationship my Dad and I had was not all that great, and we were not all that close. I always felt that my Mom had to push me onto my Dad, and ask him to take me to places, or do the simplest things; things that a father should teach his son to do: mow the lawn, ride a bike, play a sport, or even have the “talk” about the birds and the bees. Any time my Dad and I spent together he had beer in his hand, and was in the process of asking me to fetch him another one; he called them “sodas”. I learned from very young age what those called “sodas” did to people. I knew that they made …show more content…
And when he did, to just wake up hoping he would wake and not die in his sleep. Living with fear. I don't believe he ever realized what he did to my childhood, I don't believe anyone realized what I had gone through. The repetitive nights of seeing my drunk Dad shaped me to not rely on anyone to take care of me, on the other hand feel very much like I have to watch out for my loved ones, putting myself aside like I did with my childhood, not by choice. I don't think my friends ever understood me back then, I always found a way to separate from group settings, as if I always had to be backstage ready to pick up anyone that needed to be picked up, like my