So, I guess I should start my blog off by telling you all a little bit about me. Currently, I am 24 years olds, my favorite food is anything fried, and I love to entertain people. Lastly, I just so happen to be gay. It's hard to put something like that out on the internet for anyone and everyone to read, but I think it's one of the first steps in fully becoming myself. I, like many people in the LGBTQ community, struggled with this notion of "being gay". I mean after all I was in a relationship with a great guy for nearly two years. We will call him Matthew. We said I love you, we held hands, and he was my best friend. Isn't that what love is supposed to be? And I never truly understood why it was all so difficult. If this was truly "love", …show more content…
Thanks to Matthew I was finally able to begin to take the next step in my life. However, this "step" was more of a step back. At this time I was in college, and on top of moving away from home, tons of course work and a job, I had now lost my only security blanket. Matthew was hours away and after we broke up I lost my best friend and the only one who knew about me. I no longer had a best friend that I could talk to. I would then become extremely sad, depressed, and anxious all the time. (Now I will back track just a tad. Before my relationship with Matthew and in between our break ups, I found the fan-fiction community. I was happy to find a community that shared in the same thoughts and stories that I had. It made me feel normal during a time I felt that I was not.) Back to college now, I returned back to the internet for comfort. In fact, it is where I met my current girlfriend and I found other people who were struggling just like me. Granted I made a few mistakes along the way, but eventually I found writers, Youtubers, and characters of tv shows or movies, that inspired me to move on and feel somewhat normal. (Maybe I will share these in another