Personal Narrative: My Fear Of Writing

I have an immense fear when I even think about having to write any kind of a essay or research

paper. I was born in Heerlen, The Netherlands, and spent my first couple grades in the Dutch school

system. I was very young and struggling to learn two languages at once. I actually did pretty good with

learning the languages at the same time because my father would speak english to me and my brothers,

and my mother would speak dutch. So when I started kindergarten, I was pretty much ready to go with

all the other kids. I was just starting to grasp the early dutch writing skills for my age and grade level,

when one day my parents told me we were moving back to the United States, and my brothers and I

would be going to an american

So being

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suddenly thrust into a new school, new kids I didn’t know, and not to mention a secondary language,

this is where my fear of writing started, or my lack of confidence with this subject.

When I need to write any kind of a paper, I need total isolation to concentrate without any noise

or distraction. It takes me probably longer than most to complete a paper, but this is the main reason

for my fears. I first try to get all my thoughts in my head before starting to write, but once my fingers

touch a keyboard, all my thoughts change, and the information starts to flow freely. I never really liked

to write on paper, because I was always second guessing myself, and I would be forever scratching out

what I just wrote. It’s so funny now, how did I ever get anything done! Then my best friend the

computer came into my life, and it felt like I found my new tudor, my long lost confidence. I’ll never

forget my first essay I wrote using a word processor. I just sat there with that same mind numbing loss

for thoughts and words. I could always type pretty good, but this one instance, my fingers were