As I tell him the news of Giles, I see his thoughts. I vision that he hopes to die with such courage and loyalty to God. He begins to think about his death and him leaving to the beautiful and luxurious Heaven. I do not want this for him, aye I want him to live. I am fighting my thoughts. I want to tell him to stay, stay for the baby, me, and the other children. We have so much to lose if he chooses to stay silent. It is symbolic how his silence will lead to a forever silence. Who am I to ask him to die or to live? But I love him and want to raise another son with him. If he lives, aye he will live in shame in the eyes of God and of himself. His name be ruined, his reputation and hard work all far gone. If he goes on, what happens to his field? …show more content…
All may be off but we are here together in the real world. It is hard, telling him to betray such a powerful power just for me, but tis how I feel. I remind him of the goodness inside of his soul. I suggest that he must forgive himself and he will be restored. I see his future, tis is all good. I inform him of my insights. I can sense some confusion and uncertainty brewing within his body. I warn him of my sins, and he mustn 't absorb them. I scold him for even thinking for a moment 's time that he must die on behalf of my sins. His sins are entirely my own. I failed him; I failed to take care of him, so he turned to the arms of another to fulfill what I could not do. Despite my love for him and my words to confess and live his life, I try to push them down and advise him to make this decision for only himself. He declares he will confess, and happiness fills my soul and body. Aye it may be different with our neighbors, but we shall only focus on our family. How will they treat us? With kindness, anger, resentment, or with cold-hearted bitterness? Will we still have comrades and partnerships? But I thank you God for changing his