It was 11:45 A.M. and I was still in bed dealing with a hangover from the night before. I can still remember laying there, hair smelling like cigarette smoke and the taste of stale tequila on my breath. While I was trying not to up-chuck everywhere, all I could think about was what I had done wrong to make Roger leave me. Roger is my son’s father and I thought the love of my life. I had tried so hard and spent so much time trying to be exactly what he wanted me to be, that I lost myself in the process. About a year later I met Taylor and getting out of bed in the mornings wasn’t so hard anymore. Like any relationship in the beginning, it was fun and exciting. She made me feel like there was light at the end of the tunnel. What I didn’t …show more content…
She asked me, “Who are you and are you happy with that person?” She went on to tell me about a book she read called, “Happiness Now,” written by Robert Holden. In his book he says, "Happiness and self-acceptance go hand in hand. In fact, your level of self-acceptance determines your level of happiness. The more self-acceptance you have, the more happiness you 'll allow yourself to accept, receive and enjoy. In other words, you enjoy as much happiness as you believe you 're worthy of [emphasis added]." She went on to tell me that she would not ask me to choose. She did not want me to resent her later for not being able to have a relationship with my family, because of her and got up and left. I immediately got online and started researching different topics and found a “Happiness Now,” written by Robert Holden. In his book he says, "Happiness and self-acceptance go hand in hand. In fact, your level of self-acceptance determines your level of happiness. The more self-acceptance you have, the more happiness you 'll allow yourself to accept, receive and enjoy. In other words, you enjoy as much happiness as you believe you 're worthy of [emphasis added]." That was it, I knew what I had to do. I choose