My head was pounding. The words spinning around a million miles a minute feel like daggers to my heart. “You’re not good enough. You’re not pretty enough. You’re not smart enough.” These are things my conscious was constantly reminding me of. Thoughts that ran through my head almost everyday. A daily challenge that no young girl should ever have to face. A challenge that is later on harder than anything you’ve ever come in contact with. An evil within the human mind that you can’t escape. It wasn’t until the middle of my sophomore year I realized I was in a dark place. I went from being a cheerful, eager sophomore to reserved and dejected. I’ve always been the type of person to suppress my feelings. In my mind, showing how you felt meant showing weakness. The greatest challenge I have always faced is my weight. In this generation, peoples view and expectations on girls are set too high. People think that girls should be perfect but their idea of perfection …show more content…
As I started to prepare for college and my future, nothing seemed to be going right. The stress of my grades and striving to do the best that I can took a large impact on my life. Constantly upset with myself for my grades and the stress of my school work was emotionally damaging. Towards the middle of the year I felt like giving up. I never wanted to leave my house, even just waking up or being productive was a daily challenge. I didn’t understand why I felt the way I did. It could’ve been the stress weight I was gaining or the pressure put on me to have acceptable grades. I believe everyone has a purpose in the world but at that time I couldn’t figure out what mine was or if I even had one. I questioned the point of waking up and continuing to live my life as I always did. A fake smile trying to push through. I felt selfish. Selfish for not appreciating life when others would give anything to have theirs back or have one as fortunate as