After you die, it is believed that you have 7 minutes of brain activity left inside of you. In those 7 minutes you experience your entire life over, in a kind of dream, because in a dream, time is stretched. What if right now you’re in those 7 minutes? How do you know if you’re alive or just reliving old memories?
August 6th, 2014.
Dear Diary,
The truth of my husband's words shook my world. I’m beginning to write to vent my frustrations, sometimes anger, but mostly sadness. Our relationship is turning to one-sided dependency. The events of the day often lead me to the memories of our earlier life, and starting this journal, my main ambition is to rediscover the man I once fell in love with, with hope that I’ll stop missing him when his breaths fall short and his skin turns pale. Dave’s mind is a constellation, and his presence resembles a black hole. He’s spiraling into another space and disappearing without a trace. The doctor tells me he has Alzheimer's.
November 12th, 2014 – 3 months and 6 days after Dave’s diagnosis.
Dear Diary,
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The smell of coconut oil conjures up tropical beaches and swaying palms; a strong contrast to the snow that covers our bedroom window. As his eyes open, grey as the sky, he gazes towards me, and just like that… he’s gone. A blank canvas. Without a shadow of doubt, his eyes spoke more words than his mouth ever did. I think of tomorrow, and what it will bring. Will he remember me? I anticipate the time to remember things that deserve remembering, and maybe some things that don’t. After all, I can’t see the clock from where I sit so time is not really