How To Write A Rationalized Explanation For My Desire To Die Essay

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A Rationalized Explanation for My Desire to Die A consequence of human existence, consciousness, and self-awareness is a constant detachment for one’s sense of reality and a mentality of cynical nihilism. It is the realization, understanding, and acceptance of the insignificance of life and the futility of mortal constructs that attempt to provide meaning and fulfillment to it. Life’s insignificance is not in itself troubling. Rather, humanity’s miniscule place in the immense universe is a peaceful comfort. It is through this insignificance that the burden of responsibility is lifted from the shoulders of mankind. No longer is there a need to “do something or be something worthwhile” for the sake of the world. The world itself is by default, impartial to human influence; the Earth will continue its natural processes and non-human organisms will continue their survival with or without the presence of humanity. The Earth may sustain environmental …show more content…

I have no desire to experience life. I have no desire to live. This is not out of depression, but out of pure logical reasoning. I do not want to put effort into something inherently futile. I do not want to succumb to the chimera of meaning. I do not want to interact or connect with people on a level that emphasizes the illusion of human vulnerability and sentimental reciprocation. I do not want to experience the “lows” life has to offer, nor do I want to experience the “highs”. I prefer an eternal sleep of nothingness. Every day I look forward to dying, and I am constantly tempted to take matters into my own hands. Unfortunately I am restrained by the awareness of how my death would negatively affect those who have chosen to place value in my existence. However I am becoming increasingly sure that one day my patience with life will thin, and I will attempt to kill myself, and that attempt will be successful (because I’m thorough and meticulous about anything I set my mind